Want

"You don't always get what you want."

That's what she said to me so very long ago, though I'm reminded everyday.

I've always believed that you should at least try to get what you want though, if that makes you happy. I've been telling myself that to justify everything I've done recently. Maybe I'm right, maybe not. Who knows? Not me.

So it boils down to a matter of what I want.

I want that person, of course.

But not as much as I want her to be happy.

But right now it seems like the only thing I can do is wait. Wait for things to settle, for people to be ready. Then to see if it works, or happens.

In that other time and place.